Pan-duh

>"Listen toots, I'm one of 1,ooo left in the world,
Don't think I cant drop your ass"

Buffalo Gals

This week has been up there on the charts of tough.
One of the greatest men in my life, Big Dad, past away Friday and we are all still in shock. I Played at the funeral yesterday and I dont think I've cried this much since my Deedee past away.
It seems like the best people on earth always leave way too soon.
I got a phone call today at one that Ron was leaving at Four. Its really sinking in right now and I dont know how I'm keeping my head up so.... well? Im pretty sure I'm really going to crash here soon, but for now Ive got some ETID.
"You know its just so hard going limp in your arms"

Im thinking that maybe I should minor in art. Im currently building up my drawing portfolio with any request anyone has.
Tonights? Yeah, its a girl. A Zombie...girl.
A lady in Oklahoma on myspace asked me to do it for a tattoo and so far its looking alright. Im not really into that sort, but atleast I'm getting variety!

Today was so pretty, i really didnt want it to end. I watched some wundershowzen and played with charles.
CHARLES MY NEW HAMSTER.
Currently, kirkland and i are battling over custody. Because Charles is just that cute.
Monday night kirk and i headed off to the mall to buy me a dress. My wardrobe is slowly fading away from so much black which was a bad thing in this situation; i needed something new. I got a really pretty dress for only 25 bucks (which is totally beside the point) and soon after we visited the pet shop. I first wanted a turtle, but they had none. Nor did they have kittens, birds, or puppies on my budget of 10 dollars. BUT THEY DID HAVE BUNNIES. I really wanted one. I pretty much sat at that plexyglass box the entire time. Kirk kept trying to explain to me why exactly the rabbit couldnt live in the bath tub but it wasnt until we found Charles that I let the Bunny dream die. Charles is "fancy". So much so, they named an entire race of Hamster after her. She pretty much puts all other hamsters to shame. Charles IS a girl, but I didnt know this until after I named her. "Charles" stuck, but fortunately shes confident in her gender despite the name. Too much so maybe. I came home the other day to find this:




Darn boy-thievin-hamster.

Kirkland really likes her.


Maybe alittle too much even.



I've just realized I write like a six year old.
Oh well.

Heres to happier days.
Keep Ron in you prayers.
Keep the Tanner family in there too!

Kirk, Kittens, and Kids

I have one cup of French silk, one drawing i'm working on, one calculus test in a week, one botched concert I planned for 3 months, and one more class until todays over.
Not a good list.
...well at least half.

So i've started drawing ALOT over the past 2 days. I wish i could do the things i can now back in high school. Ah well.
Today I got TWO orders from people who'd like me to draw portraits of their children. Creepy? Sort of. But i really need to build up a portfolio.
So what i've done so far is to the left.
Over look the calculus.

In other news: I really want a kitten. I feel like im 7 again and nagging everyone around me for some sort of cute fluffy animal to have...and love...and stuff. Im pretty sure this is a great idea seeing how i live in a university apartment. BLAH. No matter, i still want one.


I found a boy named Kirkland who I really like.
Its the best relationship I've ever had (quite possibly THE BEST IN EXISTENCE) and it doesn't hurt that most of our dates end with ice cream. I met kirk about 3 years ago now at a annoyingly strange boy's house named Sam Mason. Kirk was drunk on a pool table and defended my honor with a cue and 8 ball. Ah, Romantic. Our initial courtship consisted of Vespas, phone calls, and infomercials. It was bliss. Unfortunately, i was not allowed to see him so we drifted separate ways only to knock into each other occasionally at Lobsters of Red... Things like this happen. We started officially dating the day after graduation. To be honest, we had been seeing each other for some time, but no one knows about that...well i guess until now. Any ways, every thing has honestly worked out for the best. Thats why this after noon we are going to solve my kitten-needing dilemma.
Heckyes,bestrelationshipever.